For you

What you love are high atmospheres, cheerful faces, and a world so bright and joyful that happy souls won't seem to be too happy ever.

So I gave a bitter smile.

But no, I think that's not enough. Even a little too embarrassing perhaps?

Maybe a fake smile will do?

So, I tried again, tried to be like one of those party ANIMALS.

But guess what? 

I never thought I could fake a laugh! 

A laugh so joyful that I deceived both you and me!

But I bet that doesn't matter either...whether it was just a lie, or not..

A false manifestation of things that are not in me now is too well accepted by you, my 'friend', that I started to feel that's the way to do it.

THAT'S THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO BE

SO WHY NOT I BE IT?

You never want the real me~

And you will never know the real me.

Period.

从零开始

改变很难，可是这不表示不需要改变。

姓盘滴，你改改吧～

肯定会不习惯的，可是总比停滞在这片烂泥地要强。

最近有点压力到连手机来了个message 还是 notification也会感到紧张害怕。

这很不正常吧？

姓盘滴你争气点！

主啊，我撑得很辛苦。袮确定袮所给的是我能承受的吗？我好像要接近崩溃了啊。

孤僻

连我老妈也开始问我，说我会不会太孤僻了点？

额…这不也是您生的吗？

记得刚上中一时曾经也被同班同学给予“孤僻的人”这个封号…不过习惯也就罢了。